Annnnd at the moment (wont last since it’s the only thing I’m good at) i am not going to plan anymore wedding shit. I am packing up all the junk I’ve been wasting my time and money on and won’t look at a single thing. No more planning period.Done feeling shitty for being in love. Done feeling shitty and pathetic for being the only one that wants something. And i am DONE looking like the idiot that plans her wedding without a fucking ring, ESPECIALLY the girl whose boyfriend has no interest in buying the ring or being married to. Gah! Things are gonna start changing around here. Big things.
At this point in time and our relationship , I don’t even know what to do. I don’t want to be the one planning everything all the time. But i want to do stuff, and if I’m not planning anything… We arent going to do anything… Least not anything that’s my idea of fun…but at least it’d be something. I feel like he doesnt put any thought into this… I know he does. But its not what i think it should be like. There I go again with all my expectations… Yay…
With this whole proposal thingie… I feel like its just going to be done. And said and pointless. He isnt going to be nervous about asking my dad, or asking me, or trying to make it perfect for us… Hey, I’m finally asking, we’re getting married. Go ahead and book shit. And that’s going to make me so sad… Because I’ve wanted something, and I’m a planner, I am going,to lose out on that moment… Which is mostly my fault… I know he doesnt want to get married. I know for a fact… But I’m tired of waiting to be able to start OUR lives TOGETHER…
I wish I had what sooo many other couples had… Least what i feel like thwy have… I try and not,compare things… But I do, and it hurts to see other guys go so far out of their way to do anything they can to make their girls happy… And I get someone who doesn’t even know when I’m upset.
I guess thats how my life is going to be from now on… I waited too long to get his, wasting time waiting for him to want to be by my side for always. I can’t just give up now after 7 years of wanting him. Gah…
I officially have been waiting a year for the ring now… Since it got really serious and he’s said hes ready to do it….
We’ve gone on 4-5ish trips…
He hasn’t asked my dad… He takes his free time to fix computers… And to research germs, or meet fellow mazda owners…
Then he complains that he never had any time to plan things for us, or hey away to go shopping, or ask my dad, or nothing… I wanted a year of preparation before the wedding… And I’m totally losing allll the time. Next May ninth is perfect in every way… I have my heart set on it… But it really is getting to the point where i don’t think he wants to get married… He’s pushing it to where it’s not worth it. I neeeeed to start booking vendors note. I can’t just wait till 2 months ahead… But mauve it’s okay. Maybe the world just does not want us to get married. Totally seems that way. Something always gets in the way… Meh Meh…
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I am so thirsty for emotional and physical intimacy with someone
I want to nuzzle their neck and lay entwined on my bed and lazily kiss their lips and make them food and get to know every single curve and contour they have
I want to touch someone with my finger tips and make them feel loved
Great scene, and based on an actual historical incident in medieval Germany:
When King Conrad III defeated the Duke of Welf (in the year 1140) and placed Weinsberg under siege, the wives of the besieged castle negotiated a surrender which granted them the right to leave with whatever they could carry on their shoulders. The king allowed them that much. Leaving everything else aside, each woman took her own husband on her shoulders and carried him out. When the king’s people saw what was happening, many of them said that that was not what had been meant and wanted to put a stop to it. But the king laughed and accepted the women’s clever trick. “A king” he said, “should always stand by his word.”
Medieval women were BAMFs.
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